A guy named Brian Johnson sends daily emails to me (well..and whoever signs up)...and theyre pretty inspiring. I had been receiving Notes from the Universe...which, it may sound corny...but theyve definitely changed my life. Ok i wont go THAT far, but its definitely given me a new way of thinking. Anyways..this guy sends out an email based on his "Think Arete" idea..and theyre great.

"(I’m not a big fan of domesticating whales and circus animals, but…)
Do you think that Sea World went into the ocean, held a rope out of the boat and magically found whales that would jump over it?
Of course not.
They capture a whale, bring it to the pool, then put a rope on the bottom of the pool. The whale swims by it, it gets fed. Then they raise the rope. Whale swims under it, it's not fed; over it and it gets fed. Then they continue raising the rope until it's soon out of the water, and guess what? Soon, the whale is jumping out of the water and splashing the first 10 rows of gleefully wet families.
Same thing holds true for humans. We need continuous positive reinforcement in order to change our behavior.
You giving it to yourself and others?"

went a little MBMJ crazy. heh.
( i shopped til i dropped )

so its been like 3 years since my last entry.

have you ever known someone who even if you havent seen or spoken with them in months...the littlest "hi" from them gives you butterflies?

dammit.

how can two people in the same situation, come out with completely different thoughts, feelings and decisions about each other?

One person thinks one thing, and the other is so far from feeling/thinking the same that they might as well not even know each other......
that doesnt even make sense.

Pretty much....Kate Nash is the best woman in the world.

All I know is that you're so nice,
You're the nicest thing I've seen.
I wish that we could give it a go,
See if we could be something.

I wish I was your favourite girl,
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world.
I wish I was your favourite smile,
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.

I wish you couldn't figure me out,
But you always wanna know what I was about.
I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset,
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met.

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly,
'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see.
Basically, I wish that you loved me,
I wish that you needed me,
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three.

I wish that without me your heart would break,
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.
I wish that without me you couldn't eat,
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.

All i know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
I wish that we could see if we could be something

i usually have such high expectations for v-day. Like I want a nice dinner, flowers, candles, romance, jewelry....the works.
but this year....there was really none of that and i was ok with it. Well, there was dinner, but it wasnt a super nice restraunt.
I can honestly say it was one of the top, if not THE top valentines days Ive ever had.
We met at his place...then went to eat some yummy pitas (which i had never had). Dinner was just.....ohhhh so adorable. He has this little smile he does with the corner of his lips and it makes me want to kiss those corners for days on end.
After dinner we went back to his place and watched the suns game....WHICH THEY KICKED ASS IN. I dunno about him, but i got pretty damn tipsy since i was still sort of sick.
We just hung out and talked....snuck some kisses in there and watched movies. For some reason, he is the only person i can fall asleep while cuddling. Usually I need to not be touched to fall asleep....but hm.

There's something about this kid that makes my heart and body feel like theyre doing constant somersaults....
If the phone rings and its him....you better believe i get mad butterflies and giggle like a 3 year old.

anyway. hope everyone had a good v-day!!

what is so wrong with two people who like each other just continuing to like each other?

why does everyone want to play games?! drnglknbrglkernkg

im glad that im expected to take all of your bullshit, mean jokes...
but you cant take one WHATSOEVER.

im pretty bummed. I think when someone says "you'd be wasting your time"....thats probably a good time to walk away. But can i ever make things that simple? NOPE
I'll still be the one trying and still the one eating up every one of your words.

court in about 2 hours. :/

The young soul learns to trust by asking questions.

The old soul learns to trust by silently observing.

But wise souls, Amber, couldn't care less. They simply don't depend on others, for anything.

Whoa!
The Universe